IN HONOR OF HEATH

I wrote an article on him after I found out about his death. It was so strange. I had never written anything before and the idea of writing made my brain hurt, but writing my article on him was done quite effortlessly on my part. The words seemed to flow. This is also a site where if you are a writer or want to express your thoughts on different subjects and get paid. Its an awesome site that I highly recommend. Here's my article.

My reaction to Mr. Ledger's death came in phases. I as usual was at work and got a call from my significant other. Simple question was asked. You know that guy who's supposed to play the joker in batman? I of course immediatly knew. My knowledge of the celebrity world knows no bounds. I replied back that "yes I knew who he was why? he responded by bluntly stating "he's dead. Dead silence of about 15 seconds on my end with my heart just sinking. In those fifteen seconds many thoughts and emotions went into my head. Supreme shock was one. Disbelief and horror the next. The verbal thoughts entered. I was not that much of a fan of the guy so why is my heart sinking? I only watched a few of his movies. Is it because I have been reading so much about the new batman franchise and people's high expectations of him? like a signal from the heavens something told me to look to my right and there posted on the big screen tv of my workplace was cnn (which is hilarious considering the fact that political discussion is not allowed in the workplace yet it stays on a political channel 24/7). What I see on the screen further shocks me.

The body of heath ledger being led by paramedics in a black body bag to an ambulance. I began to get angry at the sight. Such a bold image to be displayed like that without warning and to a man who I knew valued his privacy seemed not only tacky, but sacreligious in a way. Watching this scene became a morbid experience that I had to detach myself from to hear my boyfriends ramblings on how the makeup for the new joker did not look realistic in a bored voice. If there was a way to virtually slap someone through the phone I would have made heavy use of that power in that moment! How could he not feel as sad or as shocked as I do? He feels more for the friggan joker character then the man behind the character!

Throughout the day I began to analyze my feelings and I came to the conclusion of why I was sad and shocked in the first place. As I said I was never a big fan of his to begin with. The handful of films that I saw him in was brokeback mountain and the patriot. Both films I thought he did a major job in, but as a human being he seemed very soft spoken and a good person who was dedicated to his work and was on the road to big things. When I see or hear of a celebrity dying a part of me expects to not be shocked by it. Normally because the celebrities that now pass were from the older eras or who's death's you see coming from a mile away. How many sites are putting death watches on Britney Spears? Amy winehouse? Pete Doherty? not to diminsh there importance or relevences, but to many people its just a matter of time. With that thinking I also delved deeper on why I was so shocked by Mr. Ledger's death. He was one of the good one's! Why are all the bad one's you expect to keel over are still alive and kicking and yet the one's who seem like good decent human beings and are on the deserving road to movie greatness...die? A sort of resentment begins to kick in. How many celebrity drug addicts are coming out of the woodworks? Attention loving train wrecks who seems to be bent on self destruction are still alive and yet heath is.....gone?

While objectively it is horrible to wish harm on another human being you feel is not deserving of life to another. Its a realistic and human reaction (depending on the sort of person you are some would say its inhumane to think such a thing). Surfing many gossip sights I discovered that many echoed this sentiment. While it took me a day to get over my sadness over a person I did not even know but silently respected as an actor and a person. I see his pictures posted on websites and many people coming out of nowhere on many sites to express there feelings. At least it does show that while thousands of people did not know this man or a lot of his work. His star shown silently to many people whom he may have thought did not notice. Rest in Peace Mr. Ledger. I hope they are giving you some privacy and peace in heaven! Or if you believe in reincarnation I hope he enjoys his next life...

Original article can be found here http://www.helium.com/items/835605-reaction-ledgers-death-phases